~Put The Umbrella Away~

I've got dreams in hidden places

And extra smiles for

When I'm blue

Today is a sharing day.

Have I taken things for granted?

God the Father has blessed me

many times over.

 Precious family, sweet grandchildren,

crazy fun friends,

 possessions, dreams,

health, contentment and love.

I have been a bit blue of late, 

no, I have been done right upset with myself.

I have always had an inner strength attitude,

a place where I can think, reason, ponder.

A happy place where dreams are imagined,

problems are solved.

My place, my private place, I am in control.

I am no longer in control and it is scary.

Yes, God is in control and I have given this up to Him.

I know my faith will carry this burden,

but the unknown is frightening.

These past months I have been dealing with health issues.

Did I take my health for granted?
Maybe a little,
 when it is taken away you ponder the what if's.

If I hadn't lifted those heavy logs,

 but how I loved bringing my cabins to life.

If I hadn't restored that heavy furniture,

awesome challenge and so much fun. 

If I hadn't taken my job so seriously,

an honest days work for an honest wage.

I miss working side by side wth
my soul mate and best friend Mr.b.

I have been on leave of absence since Dec. 1st.
dealing with degenerated disc's in my back.

Shooting spasms of pain from my hip area

down my leg into the bottom of my foot.

First Round - MRI and lots of pill pushing

pain pills, nerve pills, muscle pills.

Second Round - epidural shot in spine.

Third Round - surgery

 next week meeting with the surgeon.

Hopefully soon, with skilled hand of a Doctor

and the guidance of our Heavenly Father,

I will be back on feet, good as new.

Into your hands

I place my worries,

cares and troubles.

Into your wisdom

I place my path,

direction and my goal.

Into your love

I place my life.

The sun won't shine
Until you put the umbrella away